I sat, watching the mound which marked the space where we had trapped our children. It was still black and charred from the heat. They were all still there. I could feel them. I tried to sense if any of them were hurt. I couldn’t sense any serious injuries. I wondered if they were fighting. Kronos had already proven to be quite the disruptor. Should I have allowed him to be trapped together with the others?
I had tried to slow things down, tried to give myself more time to decide if putting them in the earth was right. Now as I looked at the hot, melted rock, I wondered if we had been wrong to put them in there at all.
What was the right thing to do?
It all felt so confusing.
Ouranos had left me to think. I wondered if he knew I wanted to be alone with the mound. It helped to have time to let my heat cool and figure out what it was I wanted; what I felt was right.
Having time to think had become a rare thing. There was usually someone around to interrupt my thoughts. It was nice to have a moment to myself. I had been alone in the beginning. Now there were so many more. Where did everyone fit? Ouranos? The children? Khaos?
Where did I fit?
I could feel Ouranos moving above me in his heavens. I looked up at him and he looked at me curiously.
“Are you alright?” he asked.
It seemed like such a simple question, but I didn’t know. I had cooled enough, but I still didn’t have answers.
“I feel better,” I said.
He came down and joined me.
“Does it make you feel better to watch over them?”
“It does. It helps me know that they are truly safe while we decide what we should do next.”
“That was quite exhilarating, doing that with you. You are even more powerful than I thought.”
I smiled.
“It was nice to see what we could do together. It is nice to know we can contain some of our creations.”
“Gaia, I know you do not like having them there, but I think it is better. I feel like I can finally breathe. I do not have to worry about their energy and their problems.”
“It is nice to have the quiet,” I agreed. “But it cannot last. We need to decide what to do. How can we manage our creations so that other things are not destroyed?”
“I had hoped Kronos would be the answer. Maybe he still is.”
“And if he is not? What do we do?”
Ouranos sat thinking for a moment. I shifted back to staring at the mound.
“I do not have answers either, but I think the answers will come,” he finally said.
“How will they come? Is there something we can do to make them come faster? How long must our children stay inside my earth? How will we know when the answers have come? What if the children do not like the answer? Will our children understand? How do you know that what we have done is right?”
I couldn’t help letting all of my questions pour out.
Ouranos enfolded me.
“I think it is right, but I cannot explain. It feels right that we are working together. It feels right that I am with you.”
I closed my eyes, feeling the calm security he provided. He kept me safe. He cared for me.
And that was enough for now.
If I Had Words 
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